but then i'm reminded on nights like this of how fortunate i am to be where i am. to be a student at ucla and have the opportunities i have, is truly a testament to god's grace.
and speaking of god's grace-- i had the chance to share my testimony last night. in all honesty, i went in without enough prep, and without enough prayer and i was in contemplation of the extent and amount in which i should share. within this group, there had been a precedent set of logistics over emotions, of events over convictions, and i found myself wrestling with what was right. i could've easily have swept through the "big things" that have happened in my life or i could've gotten deep and emotional about the ways in which god had shaped me through the years.
as my words started to tumble out, i was still unsure and stuck somewhere in the middle. but as i shared, i was reminded once again of how unjust and foolish it would be to not detail the works god had done in my life. my neglect in mentioning these things would cast a shadow over the grace that he had demonstrated and my unworthiness of the blessings in my life. it would take him out of it, and make my life a sum of coincidences and luck in getting me where i am today.
“If you are going to be used by God, He will take you through a number of experiences that are not meant for you personally at all. They are designed to make you useful in His hands, and to enable you to understand what takes place in the lives of others.”
on a completely different tangent: i wish i would spend more time with my writing. i type as i think, and i never look back. i wish i could craft my words with wit and ease but i just don't put the time/thought in.
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